Did you want me like this?

In my favourite place with the freest smile directed to your bones

Or maybe

You wanted me in your arms as everything I thought I knew collapsed around me

I do not know what you wanted

But I'm sure that if you had told me, I would have taken out my heart and given it to you with the tears that implored for you not to steal having had you. 

Or was it that you wanted me around the tables repeating all the bad poetry about what colour I saw when we were around?

Why didn’t you tell me?

I would have learned the language of the politicians to keep you tied to me until the Titanic put us to sleep

God, what did you want?

and

Why didn’t you tell me?

Ta.