6

Stay calm because I do not love you

but I do want you

although I know how to break this temptation

I shall only sin with other lips and bodies

your name I shall say it while drunk

and I will only talk about you with my cats,

there is no need to fear,

what my mind builds I will demolish

with the passion of a hurt heart,

stay calm because I will not fall for you,

for you, I will avoid the damages and

I will learn not to love what the heart desires,

for your sake, for my sake,

for our sake.

T.A.

5

With age, the bitterness rises

and the disappointment gets complicated,

we lose the magic in our eyes,

the dreams are the glasses with which we bleed

the words are double-edged

and you must distrust the one you love.

With age, everything gets worse

with the reality that harasses us

but with age

Everything improves

with the way you kiss the one you love,

the desire to fight for your convictions,

blood in the teeth for the words well said,

and with blind confidence without burning bridges.

With age, the balance worsens before improving.

T.A.

4

We say beautiful things,

incorruptible and perfect,

we relate them to the verbs

miss and wish

without thinking once or twice,

we do not stop to ponder

that maybe it was correct

in not loving what adored him 

as if he was the sun and stars,

that was kind in not kissing the lips that begged him

because he was not the love that would open the doors

of my words and my desires,

he would not be the one who would destroy me and create me.

Maybe he was just a rung on a ladder to the right one

and that's why it's okay, let him forget my name

my scent

and my love for him

because if it was nothing to him,

I do not want my love to be everything when it’s too late.

T.A.

3

It's one in the morning

And I'm still looking for ways to know if you want me or not.

I want to understand how the brain of a person that I do not understand works.

And I attract the dream with the desire to continue believing the scenarios of you and me in an eternity of a moment trapped in an illusion.

Maybe tomorrow you can come and help me understand how to stop repeating I like you but you do not like me without it hurting, and maybe you're just helping the new addiction.

Who knows?

I know.

T.A.

2

It is said that the wait

it's throwing a coin

in the air.

What it is not said

is that it's throwing a coin

to space and eternally

keep waiting.

T.A.

1

The reflections deceive me

my breathing shakes

and the lips are soaked in blood

but it isn’t you

and the world falls apart,

because you have become an obsession

an addiction without control

and every corner with shadow has your scent,

every word starts with your voice

and your name is an echo enclosed in the confined spaces.

Oh, God, if this is a new opportunity,

and a new desire with torture

I shall steal it without return.

T.A.

Deserved

If I loved you as you wanted, then it would not be my love, because mine is the colour in the wind and the heat hidden in winter, and I know you love me for how you talk to me but it isn’t a deserved love and won one by how you behave around me.

So stay with your heart and me with mine, that perhaps another day we will find ourselves loving the deserved ones and we will know that we did the right thing.

T.A.

Time

Everything moves too fast,

but too slow

Because I have to wait ten minutes for a message

and a life for a kiss

and loneliness lasts three lives

There isn’t any time for anything,

except for the way we kiss

and even with the little time

and the games

even with the running of the sand

you can’t tell me if you want me or not

and if you do not have time, I do not have seconds

You have this respite of the last kiss

to tell me if you stay or leave

because I do not have the time to give you that you do not have




T.A.

What?

What I love of him?

His smile

No

The way he looks at the stars

That is vague

The way that he steals food

No no no

Gossssh, what I love of him?

Everything, I love everything he is even to what I don’t know.





T.A.

Destroy, learn, rebuild

I loved myself when everyone left me,

in a dark corner

with the echoes of their footsteps

and the lips with blood,

I got up with broken bones

to be worthy of my life with my breaths and actions

and not of someone else's.




T.A.