Always mine

I want to call you mine

I want to call you mine

I want to call you mine

but

I’m tired of being the sacrifice that our beginnings seek

I'm exhausted from being the one to put on the gloves and fight breathlessly for  this heart to beat

I have gotten tired to the muscles of continuing to run for a trade that is taking my years away.

I want to be able to say that I love you

But

You have spent me with the way that you are a rainbow of moods that has a coin in the air and my balance is breaking

You have betrayed my heart for the last time with your words that are expectations bathed in acid for this insane brain that is still waiting to have you

You have embarrassed me until my last plea because my hands no longer have the reflexes to survive every fall that your shadow brings to my presence

and

I want to be able to say that I hate you

But

You look at me

You kiss me

And I want to call you mine.

Ta.