The beginning

I started replacing my addictions, I started spending my money on nicotine and lollipops. 

I  started the campaign to erase from my body every trace of love, I will stop this epidemic by the last remaining finger.

My walk that is dancing with madness and obsession is over. 

The way your name was easy and sweet from my lips has ended. 

I have to say goodbye to the way you sang the same song three times 

and 

that you had this nervous tic with your hair that left me wrong.

I have found a way to eliminate every detail that left me with a crooked heart and made me believe that oxygen did not reach the brain.

I have begun that with the notion that is to grow, to mature and accept.

It's remembering that you liked The Smiths, knowing that your birthday is odd and you like the ocean more than me.

I started calling it learning, to say no to every dream that leaves me with sand in my mouth and with arms trembling in abstinence.

I have started to walk in a belonging of mine that did not wait for you in every corner. 

T.A.